Suddenly, a tall man with white cloths came to me from heaven and took my hands and hugged me and brought me up and didn’t let me sin again.
I am Yousef. I am 32 years old.
I believed in Jesus Christ eight years ago. This is my testimony of how I believed in Jesus Christ. I was born in a religious family and my mother is very religious. Her family members are so religious that they don’t hear music even in their weddings.
Between the ages 10 to 15 I was calling prayers at school and I was memorizing the Quran. At school I was responsible to make everyone say their prayers. I was teaching my classmates how to say their prayers.
When I was teenager my family moved to another neighborhood so all my friends were changed. My new friends had many new things to teach me. I was not a religious boy anymore.
I was experiencing much up and down in my feeling and thoughts.
When I was studying at high school I was an energetic and happy boy. I was going to gym and so I had many friends. I was sending most of my time with my friends and I had many girlfriends too and I spent all my feeling and energy on them. Every day I was doing deeper in lust. I was smoking and drinking alcohol.
After finishing school all these doing were ordinary and every holiday I and my friends were doing any sin you can imagine. I spent all my weekly income for having sex with different girls and drinking alcohol at weekends.
All these sins made me feel depressed.
I was experiencing much up and down in my feeling and thoughts. I was playing music too and in this field I met the ones who thought there is no god. That time I believed that there is no god and I felt all religions are vain.
When I watched my childhood pictures I laughed at them. But nothing could fill my inside vacuum. Little by little my happiness turned to depression and sadness. Whenever I was friend with a girl, after a while again I experienced another wound in my heart and soul.
I couldn’t understand why my life felt so vain and why I can’t reach my goals and the peace I’d always wanted.
With each sin a new curse came in to my life. A sudden joy and excitement came in to my life and went quickly. I remember a night we held a big party and we did all kinds of sins. Our home was full of different kinds of people, we were drinking alcohol and having sex till morning and I had to bring a few of my friends to hospital.
I decided to discipline my life and start a new life. So I asked one of the girls in my relatives because I was sure she will accept my suggestion. I thought I can get rid of my lust and thoughts which were bothering me.
We had relationship for years and all the family knew this. But I was surprised when her answer was negative to my request and she told me I didn’t want you anymore. This event shocked my feeling. I went to a wilderness for three days and I was weeping and I couldn’t talk.
I couldn’t understand why my life felt so vain and why I can’t reach my goals and the peace I’d always wanted. I prisoned myself for three months. There were many questions in my mind. My job was sighing day and night.
After three months I took a cross necklace, once one of my girlfriends had given to me, and I thought lets pray in Jesus name because He is also a prophet and cry out to God. It was the first time I was praying to God in my language and I asked God why I don’t have peace. Why is there no joy in my life and everything is cursed?
After passing one week my close friend and the singer of our music group came to me and told that someone had told him about Jesus and he believed in Jesus for one month. She suggested me to come and listen to his friend. I was very passionate those days and always I have loved Jesus so I was eager to hear about Jesus.
After visiting this new friend I believed in Jesus and I prayed and gave my heart to him. I remember that time I was just thinking to something that can help me connect with God and it was no matter what it was.
I heard this sentence “yesterday I told that you, ‘you are my son’. I don’t permit that my son sins anymore”.
When I believed in Jesus I didn’t understand what to do and what to say. I didn’t understand that Jesus is the lord and what has he done for me. The second night when I was asleep, I found out the truth.
I saw in a vision my past, going to adultery. But suddenly a tall man with white cloths came to me from heaven and took my hands and hugged me and brought me up and didn’t let me sin again.
I remember that when I rose from the earth I heard this sentence “yesterday I told that you, ‘you are my son’. I don’t permit that my son sins anymore”.
At that moment I woke up. I had a good feeling. It was as if something has been changed inside of me. I could feel God’s healing in my mind and my feelings and I could touch the transformation.
A low voice said in my ears “you are healed”, and, “nothing is dominating you”. Later I found out that it was Holy Spirit. This healing and this voice was reality because after a few month I found out that I am not the perverse person I thought I was. And I didn’t want to have relationship with girls. I am not bound to my lust.
…My mother told me she didn’t understand how I had been a pagan and yet had become so kind and transformed a lot.
I started growing in my faith and the first one of my life was Jesus.I started preaching to the people who were similar to my past personality.
I met a couple whom I found out after a while they were not married and living together out of marriage. They asked me a lot of questions and I answered them but my responses were not from me, it was God’s word in my tongue.
After a few years serving lord in the church, I heard a message from God to marry one of our church girls. So we got married but our families who were very religious started becoming offended at us although they wondered about our transformation of character.
They were opposing our belief and my mother told me she didn’t understand how I had been a pagan and yet had become so kind and transformed a lot.
By entering DMM and planting churches with the Bible, the church system has been changed completely. Jesus sifted His church completely and the believers who really care about God’s service were left. I could see how God makes their people ready to stay in their faith with Bible study and obeying from His word.
After passing five years, God invited me for His service with is grace and today all my life, energy, time and my joy is for preaching God’s kingdom.